So I've been pretty Obsessed with these song called Broken Home by Papa Roach And the song Scars aslso By Papa Roach I think that they complete my life. Honestly I think they have every bit of my life in them.. Sad. Eh what ever.
So I think I have decided that I am going to move back home when I am done with school. It's official. I'm moving back to Humboldt in 5 months, and I will be living there for about a year to a year in a half. I will be getting a job and what not. Not that it really makes a difference because people will talk to me about as much then as they do now.. which for all who are wondering isn't at all really.. Cool I know. People I used to talk to everyday and who talked to me everyday now don't talk to me at all unless I talk to them first.. I mean there was really only one or two people that made a complete effort to see me..(I understand I'm not everyone first priority and they have other shit to do.) anyways, I wonder if they will even call me on my birthday, Oh for those who also don't know that I will be 18, March 12 :} ( I want money) lol just saying :-P
I know that when I move back this time I wont be messing with those Scandalous people, that I associated my self with before, and what I mean by that is there are a very select few people I consider "Friends" then there is even less I consider my "Best Friends" and then people I consider "Family" and you can only imagine how little that is. I'm not a trusting person.. at all.. I am pretty easy to get along with but hard to handle to say the very least. Sorry I need to get that off my chest..
So I went to talk to my representative today about Scholarships and Grants for when I go to The University of Houston and come to find out you don't have to apply for those till a couple months before you start school or something like that. So I asked my current Chef to write me a letter of recommendation and he said that he can't really say anything that will help me in the industry because I don't have enough experience, and my knife skills aren't as good as they would be if I was to have worked in a place prior to starting school. Kinda put a damper on my day, but the truth is the truth and I appreciate the honesty no matter how harsh it may be.
Weird thing of the day.. I ate an Octopus... well just a piece of it but still. I didn't like it.. at all.
I think I might be out of the funk I have been in the last week or so.. because I can actually smile with out making myself and laugh with out being sarcastic. I also don't feel as much like shit.
I have also come to the conclusion. I am tired of being single, yet don't know how to fix it, and don't say well go and find a guy because we all know it isn't that simple. Not sure what I'm doing wrong..
OH! by the way to that stupid A** B**** on the bus this morning who thought me and my friend where homeless people who needed shelter, I hate you; your ruined my morning I hope you are happy.
That's all.
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-Larissa Pree
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