Give Me Something Worth Fighting For

The truth is I am torn.. very torn but then again not so much, because I know where I stand with one person and with the other one I don't know where I stand so much, it is hard to think about the things that we want, than have the possibility of being taken away at any moment in this unpredictable life that we lead, you never know where life is going to take you, so you end up on a windy road with out knowing what is going on around you and thinking that the world is growing and changing right before your eyes and there is nothing that you can do about it, so you just sit there and make the decisions that will make you happy at that moment, what do you do when you love someone so much that it kills you to think about loosing them, yet you are falling for some one who treats you better than anyone ever has, yet lacks most of the qualities that the other person possesses, although the other person who you are afraid to loose you couldn't ever be with because of your own insecurities and problems and what not.

I don't where I'm ment to go in life but I know that there is a big plan for me, even  if I can't figure out what is it right now or even picture it. I need to find a person I am willing to fight for and person who I am willing to give everything for; I need a person who is willing to give me their all and work with me because I know that I am not perfect, but I worth staying with, hopefully. I don't like feeling like I am not worth caring for because as much as I care I should be able to find some one who does sincerely care for me, maybe I'm not supposed to be with some one right now because of the stipulations of my current situation, and such, I know that I don't know a lot about relationships because I haven't been in many serious ones, which is probably why I don't go out looking for them because I don't know how to handle them.. but it would still be nice to find some one willing to give me the chance...

Life is full of hard decisions, but it is what you choose to do with the things that you are given and the choices you make, don't ever let any thing take advantage of you because it is hard to bounce back from something that hits you pretty hard.

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-Larissa Pree
<3

Posted Up Like Rambo

Another non eventful day  doing all of nothing, although I got to see my sister and nephew and watch The Help with my auntie and cousin! It was nice! That movie is sooo good I would recommend it to everyone.
Short and to the point <3

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-Larissa Pree
<3

Don't Ever Let Me Go

Sorry Followers! I haven't been on for DAYZZZ!!  I came back to Humboldt on th 17th it has been amazing! I've been a little bad.. Well sort of.. butt that isn't blog appropriate;]  So there is this guy that makes me feel like amazing! I've known him for over 3 years and kinda have always had a thing but never really did anything about it; and now that I am back we started really showing that we have a thing, but what sucks is that I don't live here anymore and he does.. and I really want to be with him, he makes me feel better than anyone ever has.. yet still makes me nervous.. It hurts to think that I have to leave in less that 2 weeks back home and I don't know when I will see him again.. not knowing what is going on.. Story of my life right? I finally get something worth holding on to and the road I chose makes me have to give it up.. but I know that no matter where life leads us we will always be close.. or at least i hope so, because if not I don't know what I would do.. so now that you have an insite on my love life.. here is my life!

I got home on the 17th of December, it was the best ride I have ever been through with my family! my brother and myself have grow up a lot and can now spend time with each other and actually have a good time with out fighting! which if you know us is a bigggg  thinggg!! The funny thing is now that we arn't really fighting we start arguing with other people.. which is pretty funny... go figure..

My mom and I don't seem as close but that is okay, she is still my best friend!  I love how open with her I can be! I can literally tell her ANYTHING in this whole wide world! she seems to have something that has been really bothering her and I don't know how to get it our of her what it is..crazy I know..

I've gotten to see most of my friends which is really nice! My sister Skyebo and nephew look amazing and so    happy it is awesome, I finally got to see him ad hold him as you can see: 

This baby  makes my world go around along with his mother <3

I got to spend time with my Fam bam over in Garberville, on Christmas! it went well.. most of the time..

I kinda miss my roommates.. well not kinda.. I do.. I realized that now that there is A LOT of testosterone in my moms apt.. which would explain why I act the ways I do..
Oh and btw Ricardo!! You are always telling me how I act such like a boy.. but around here kiddo I act more like a girl then most! believe it or not!!

I'm so confused in side, it is like I am torn.. </3

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-Larissa Pree
<3

Whiskey lullaby

So pretty much I freaking love this song! and am listening to it riiiggghhttt now:]
Oh MY FAM BAM in officially in Oregon!! Whoo hoooo! they should be at my house in T-minus 4 hours! Yay!!

Today has probably been on of the worst days this week for me! besides my family comming! for example.. I woke up and had to re clean the kitchen and living room because there was crap everywhere like usual! Then we missed the freaking bus! and had to rush to class and showed up at exactly 10. THEN! My stupid, stupid panna cotta didn't have enough gelatin in it so it didn't freaking set! so I had to freeze it this was I could actually plate it, Luckily enough though, my chef said it tasted delicious! which was awesome! AND it is freaking shark week! Ladies you know what I'm talking about.. which makes everything soo much worse and emotional.. Then I had so douche bagg start talking to me on then bus and he said " yeah with my glasses off you look photoshoped, I say that because with my glasses on I can see all the imperfections, and with out them I can't; kinda like what photoshop does to pictures" ummmm FUCK YOU.. grrr..

TOMORROW!!! I get to go back home to Humboldt County Mf California! YAYYYYYYY <3

 see you soon Bloggers! will upload a new recipe and picture tomorrow:]

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-Larissa Pree <3

Do a dollop, do do a dollop of Dasie

Sooo today is that last day I am going to spending alone.. well not alone but with my roommates for the next couple weeks, my mom and bother are heading up here  tomorrow (do not kill my joy of this.) and taking me back with them on Fridayyy!! so that I can spend time with my lovely family and friends for the Christmas and New years! I'm super excited!! I finished my food/dessert project for my baking a pastry class that is due tomorrow.. well part of it is due tomorrow the rest is due Friday, THAN I"M OUT OF THIS CLASS AND ON TO MAKING REALLLLLL FOOD AGAIN! whoooooo hoooooo! I get to see my BEAUTIFUL, Amazing baby nephew Azaria Noah Kingsang Davison for the first time sense he was in my lovely sisters belly! 

Isn't he that most cutest baby you have ever seen??

I can't wait to hold and hug hims and cuddle, and kiss hims! 

Oh by the way there are going to be new recipes and picture that I am going to be putting up on Mondays and Fridays soooo stay tuned! 

oh and did I freaking mention I AM GOING TO BE SEEING MY MOM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 6 MONTHS TOMORROW!!! 

Daily Blogg Post for alllll 3 of my followers:]

So today has had it ups and downs.. more downs than ups though.. for example I was awake at 2:30am after finally getting to sleep at 1 when I laid down at 8pm.. than I was wide awake by 8am, although that isn't to bad because my alarm goes off at 8:20 every morning I would like my 20 mins extra of sleep:] then my roommate and I left for school at 8:45 like we do every morning.. and of course it was freezing balls out side!!! but that is okay it wakes us up:] so we get to school and find out that we are making souffles and ice cream.. well sense we didn't go to school yesterday (monday) we where highly lost and unprepaired yet we still managed to complete everything with more than enough time to spare, although there is nothing more than I want than to switch to the morning class sometime there are problems with that like.. I would have to be up at 4am to be in class by 6am.. yeah that isn't going to happen, plus I would probable not like that class anymore than I like the one I'm in already.. don't get my wrong I like most of the people in my class there is just a few that always ruin it for me.. BUTTT on a lighter note here is one of the things that I made today and I am going to post the recipe for it this way you can attempt to make it at home:] although with this one I would suggest doing it in a quite calm environment because it is very touchy:]

A Roux (rou) based Souffle:
Ingredients:
1.5 oz(ounces) Sugar
1.5 oz flour
8 oz milk (whole milk preferably)
2 oz Granulated sugar
4 Egg yolks
1 oz flavoring such as Orange zest, vanilla, vanilla bean, almond, chocolate etc.
5 Egg Whites
1 oz sugar (separated from other sugar)

I know it seems like a lot but when you prep it wont seem like as much! This amount makes up to 8 souffles so if you are planning on making enough for a few people try cutting the recipe in half or so.

First make sure you have all of you mis en plase ( things that you need, be organized.)  ready. Such as,
1 good sized pot, at least 2 medium bowls, a whisk, a spatula, tasting spoons because you want to change what you taste with each time to prevent a biological containment in your food,

Second here is how you make it :]
 1)  melt butter in the pot, and add flour, once mixture is completely combined (will be thick)
2)  add milk and what ever flavoring you are planning on making your souffles
3)  Stir mixture intil think also know as nappe, making sure you scrape sides and bottom well to prevent burning
4) once mixture is thick remove it from the heat at add in the eggs one at a time making sure each egg is completely combined before adding the next, after the eggs have been incorporated add the 2 oz of sugar
5) mixture sure be very thick! so don't worry:] if it comes out really runny you did not cook it long enough in the first place or didn't measure everything out right... oops.
6) At this point you are going to start you meringue for the souffles:]
7) take one of you mixer bowls and whip your egg whites intil it looks like whip cream and holds nicely in the whisk
8) add your 1 oz of sugar and mix intil holds in whisk very firmly
9) now transfer mixture that you made in the beginning into other bowl
10) and fold in meringue that you just made in 3 steps (  which means add part of the meringue, mix intill it looks stripped, add second section of meringue and do the same, add the last of the meringue and completely mix it together to where there is no streaks and looks a solid color)
11) brush souffle cups with butter and a light coating of sugar
12) add batter into souffle cups up to the line on the cup
13) bake in a 375 degree oven for 15 - 20min or until they are a very light brown on top and have risen up

carefully remove from oven!!!!  dust with powdered sugar and enjoy:]

Umm... that seems really long but I tried to make it vvvvvveeerrrryyyy easy to understand, if there is any issues understanding this or making it feel free to let me know:] your feed back helps me improve:]

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-Larissa Pree
<3

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me :D

Soooo  here is the thing! How about I tell you what I have done so far! I have made all kinds of food in School, I'm completely and utterly sick of the Baking and Patisserie Call I am currently in, and if I NEVER have to see Dough, Butter, Sugar, or Vanilla Bean Paste again I'm sure I'll be happy:] Luckily enough this is my last week in-till a new class and I get to go home for 3 weeks! which I'm sure is going to be crazy.. considering everyone is like "WHOOO HOOO  LETS PARTY!", and people who I haven't talk to in YEARS are like "omg we need to kick it!! I really want to see you!" and I'm like reallly?? why do you want to see me now, you could have cared less about me when I was there! lol but hey what ever! I think it is because they all think I can cook... which I can't..;] 

okay.. Maybe I can cook a little:] Well if you like what you see here, Stay tuned because there will be update all the time with things I have made.