What Is This? A Recipe?! Yes:]

Okay let me give you a brief history lesson before I begin:] if I'm not mistaken Shrimp and Grits is considered a creole dish and Creole is "a combination of two things" for example creole is a mixture of French and African languages. There is a difference between Creole, Cajun foods. for those of you who don't know Cajun  Originated in Canada but when the British invaded Canada the people living there would not submit to them so they where kicked out of Canada and  traveled down the Mississippi River until they settled in the south such as Louisiana and Georgia etc. when there some went into the Bayous (swamps) and others went in to the city which created the difference of  "people" in a sense there are the Cajun's which reside in the Bayous and used the ingredients around them to create and prepare dishes and then there are the Creole who usually reside in New Orleans. okay? cool lets cook

Shrimp and Grits! 

By the way this is freaking Delicious!

Ingredients:

okay sorry there is a lot to this, but trust me it is worth it:]

Feeds 4-5 people

4-5 shrimp per bowl

1/2 lb Shrimp (16-20 count)

1 Tbs Vegetable Oil

2 Tbs Carrots cut into cubes

2 Tbs Onion Chopped 

2 Tbs Celery Cleaned and cut

1 Tsp Tomato Paste

2 C    Water

GRITS

1/2 C Grits

1 C    Sharp Cheddar Cheese

2 Tbs Butter

SHRIMP

4 Piece of bacon cut into cubes

2 Cloves Garlic

1 whole Jalapeno

2 Tbs AP Flour

1 C Shrimp Stalk (will be explained in instructions)

Procedure 

1. Clean and de-vain and de-shell shrimp reserving shrimp meat and shells

2. Add oil to pan heat till almost smoking, add onion, celery, and carrots. Cook until browning but not black, clear "hole" in bottom of the pan and add tomato past and flour. stir together until completely combined, and flour is covering all the vegetables, and turning light brown on bottom of the ban, (flour will stick to pan don't worry it will come off during cooking). add shrimp shells and cook until they are a dark red.

3. add the water and scrape the pan to remove all the flour that is stuck to the pan, reduce till you have about a 1/2 cup of liquid left, the strain and save liquid (shrimp stalk) , discard shells and vegetables.

4. Bring water for grits to a boil, add grits, don't worry if it seems a little runny it will thicken as it cools, Whisk constantly to avoid lumps one cooked to a creamy consistency remove from heat and add butter and cheese, set aside in warm place.

5. Cook bacon over med heat until fat is rendered out, bacon does not have to be crispy, add the garlic and Jalapeno, cook  until soft.  add flour and cook until it begins to color. add shrimp stock and whisk until smooth, bring to a boil for about 30 sec then reduce to a simmer, it should be able to coat the back of a spoon evenly and when you run your finger across the spoon it should hold it's place.

(This is not a picture of your sauce it is just an example of the thickness your sauce should be at)

6. Add shrimp to sauce and cook until done. finish will scallion and or parsley

Serve over grits in a bow:)

SOORRRRYYY it has been so long! 

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me

-Larissa Pree

<3

Life is Like a Box of Chocolates

So, I am going to touch a few topics on this post, from weddings, birthdays, love, school and what ever else comes to my mind. cool? cool.

Weddings <3

Lets start with some congrats to my other mother and her wedding! <3 that sadly enough I wasn't able to attend, so here is what I would have told her ! and here are some of her picture!!

 Elsie and Troy(:

Elsie at the Moonshine Bandits car<3

Elsie Bells, I love you so much! I have known you and your kids for as long as I can remember! and I am so happy you are happy and found someone worth spending the rest of your life with, he is a very lucky man to have a amazing, caring, and beautiful women like you in his life! I hope you guys are together for ever! and have an amazing life together because you deserve it! you are such an awesome person! you have been keeping track of the things that I do and staying in contact with me and I really appreciate it! it makes me feel good to know that there are still people that care even though I haven't seen them in years! I hope you and Troy live long and happy lives together and it is everything that you want!  I love you so much! stay beautiful darling!

On to the Happy Birthdays<3

Lindsey, thank you so much for inviting me out with you guys for your birthday! I had a lot of fun! sorry I couldn't contribute more I'm in a pretty rough spot right now.
I really enjoyed spending the day with you and annoying Kelly, I am looking forward to spending Superbowl Sunday with you! I wish we would have take some pictures but I snapped pictures of what I could, I am looking forward to learning more about U of H and going to school there with you if you still want to when you are done with the baking program and what not(: I had a few pictures I was going to upload on to here but for some lame reason they wont send to my face book. But anyways I love you girly and had a great time, I hope you did too<3

And Now Love.


Okay this has been bothering me for a little while now. If you just started dating someone you aren't in love yet. Period, you could like them a lot but you aren't in love. I mean come one when you start dating some one and spend all of your time together and think that they are the one person that you are going to spend your life with, so you say you love them and have sex with them and whatever, then you break up less than 6 months later you where never in love, and before people start jumping to conclusions this is not about anyone in particular, this is just on my mind. I just think that you need to know some one for at least 4-6 years to really know a person and yet you still aren't guaranteed to know everything about them, so how can you love someone when you don't know them?? food for thought.

School..


So I am thinking about applying for U of H with in the next year or year in a half, for those of you who don't know U of H means The University of Houston, it was voted one of the top 100 school in the US or something along those lines.. but there are some problems..like money, housing, and what not. for example my Gma stops helping me with things this June, so pretty much completely cuts me off, and if I go back to school I'm not sure how I am going to be able to afford everything on my own. Because I don't want to take out more loans and be in debt for the rest of my freaking life, but I need to get a good education to go anywhere, because I'm not getting stuck in Humboldt again. I'm thinking about moving back to Humboldt though till I can get enough money to go back to school and to wait for Lindsey to be done so we can go together.. but I don't know yet it is still up in the air right now. because I want to live with Kayla but I don't think I will be able to afford that and still save money to do the things I need to do. I guess we will see what happens when the time comes closed for me to be done with school, I mean in the end I have to make the best decision for me and my future.. is that selfish?


I think that is all for now..

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me.
-Larissa Pree
<3

Blog For Boredom

WTF?! It is Friday night and I am laying on my couch, listening to music?! WHAT THE MUTHA F***?! I am in college! it is Friday! oh did I mention I AM IN COLLEGE?! where is the fun?? this is so sucky! I am alone and bored out of my mind! We made a bored jar but that does me absolutely NO good alone. ugh. I would work on my project due but I don't have the stuff I need on my computer and I don't want to get on to my roommates with out her here. This sucks so bad! but the Saddest thing is I don't really want to go anywhere! I just want to be entertained! whaaaaaa 
This is how I feel:

Save me D:

That's all

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me

-Larissa Pree

 <3

Money Can Get You Anything

WRONG! 

Money can't but trust. For example today after class made me feel really good, why? because my Chef tried to tell me that I missed four days of class already and that if I miss one more I am going to have to retake the class and repay for it, Well I knew that I didn't miss four day of class, for a fact, so I went through my syllabus, and notes and approached him after class about it, ready to show him all of the proof, notes, pictures, etc. stating that I have only missed two days and that he made a mistake, well when I approached him I told him that I only missed two days maybe three, and showed him that I had it marked in my Syllabus and was about to pull out my notes, and he stopped me and said that is all he needed, and that he could tell when people are lying, and that I wasn't. He said that he trusted me, and that made me feel good inside, and yet I still pushed for him to see my notes and he insisted that he didn't need to, and that he believes me, but when he talks to a few of the other people that he is going to make them show him the evidence of them being present.

Talk about making you feel good about yourself. That's all:]

Happy Birthday to Miss Lindsey, Can't wait to spend tomorrow with you. Love you! <3

Give me a reason to smile...

I think  I might be depressed..I can't find a reason to be happy anymore.. everything seems to be going wrong, I feel so lost and confused, I have never not had control of my life and right now I feel like I don't have control..
I feel like the one thing I love to do most isn't what I want to do anymore.. I love to cook and lately I don't feel like that is what I am going to want to do with the rest of my life..  I wake up every day and don't want to move, breathe, or anything I just want to lay there and sleep.. I wake up in pain every  morning. I wish I didn't have to worry about where I am going to live 6 months from now, or where I am going to work, or if I will
have to take the bus to by groceries and things that I need. It's difficult. I have been through worse but I don't want to have to deal with all that crap again. I don't know where I see myself 50 years from now or even 5 years from now. I had this shit planned, but the funny thing about life is it is unpredictable, and that is so true, but the truth is that everything thing that we do, and go through today will make us stronger for tomorrow.

Truth is guys, that no matter how planned out you have your life, it will never go the way you want it too, the "higher power" who or whatever that is, whether you believe in god or have your own beliefs has a plan for all of us all, and honestly will never out you into a situation you can't handle.
Keep your head up and take a base ball bat to everything life throws at you and make it a home run.


Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me
-Larissa Pree
 <3

Dear Society, I Hate You.

ugh.. So tonight was the first time I went to the gym, stretched, worked out or anything sense.. well December 17th  So uh that is a long time, from working out almost every day to not working out at all.. this was not a good work out, I went on the elliptical for 20 min and did 3.8miles, then came back to the apt and attempted to work out with Leann, and well this girl has been working out and dancing and being all flexible sense she was 7.. she is now 18.. that is 11 years of doing this. maybe not constantly but doing it none the less. I've been doing this sense about 4 months ago and that isn't even close to a constant thing. So I am not nearly up to the level she is sadly enough. But I attempted to do it anyways, although most of it was super awkward, I felt the burn! I told her I would do it every night with her, and start working out again, lets see  if I am good for it though because I know how discouraged I get when I don't see instant results and can't do as much as others, but I will give myself credit for what I can do, and know any change worth making is worth working and waiting for.

Don't get my wrong I like being a "bigger" girl for the most part, but I want to be more toned. Big is beautiful, if you know how to dress and carry yourself, but that is the same with ANY size.

(This is true)

Like look at these women! they are beautiful, confident and big.  Be proud of who you are and accept what you look like no matter what size, color etc. you are. Because whether or not someone things you are beautiful and worth fighting for. Don't let anyone bring you down, or make you unhappy, if you want to loose weight; then loose weight, if you want to gain weight, then gain weight, but do it because you want to not because people or society says you should or need to. In the end YOU are the only on who is going to make you happy. Think about that next time you stop eating and start working out because someone somewhere said you need to loose weight, or when someone tells you that you need to gain weight so you start over eating and gorging yourself or when you start stuffing your bra, or wearing makeup, or  cutting your hair, this isn't just for women this is for guys to ( well except the bra, and makeup and stuff.. unless that is your thing, then more power to ya bro) stop trying to make every one else happy, and start making yourself happy, because then people will see that, more than they see what you look like, and when you are happy you look good! I don't care who you are and what you look like, if you are sincerely happy with yourself and confident that your are flawless. 

Keep that in mind. My thoughts.. well this is my blog so I guess I have the right to that ;] lol

By the way Kayla please come home I miss you and feel like I haven't hung out with you in weeks.

K, That's all:]

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me

-Larissa Pree

 <3

You Don't Look Anything Like Ginger?

Haha, I don't get the analogy of people with red or orange hair being called ginger? unless it is pickled ginger like they use to clear you tastes for sushi which is red orange-ish lol but that stuff isn't very good..? Anyways the reason for the topic is our new roommate who is moving in two weeks before she is supposed to be is a "ginger" and so far I haven't heard very good things about her at all, which sucks because I have to live with her, well we all have to live with her.. I'm not going to judge though.. well that's a lie because I have been judging sense the moment she came to visit and her first impression was slightly more than a lot bitchy which is bad to come into a new house full of girls with, especially when the girls you are moving in with are nothing to mess with... but hey, what ever gets you off right? wrong. appease those you have to live with, that goes for all of us, we all do things that will hopefully not piss of someone else that we have to share our space and things with.

But luckily the benefit of being me, is I'm not scared or intimidated by many, and I really don't have a problem saying how I feel, but then again that has been my downfall as well, it is a gift and a curse I guess. 

But on the up side I have the big room now with Leann, and hopefully we can not hate each other by the time her 2 month mark comes for her to go back to Utah:( I don't think we will just because if we where going to hate each other we would already.. no matter how close in the house we stayed.  Considering I am usually never in my room and neither is she I think we will be fine. I love her a little to much to end up hating her.. hopefully(;

I feel weird not being in a room with Kayla anymore though, she is kinda like my other half, she is the KK to my LP ;) I mean come on lol but this is good though because now once Leann goes home me and Kayla will get the big room instead of the other girl. Which is only fair considering I have been here as long as Leann and Kayla here second longest. Ya dig? if not find a shovel and start lol 

Internship

       So things for my internship aren't going so well, I don't know where to go to! I really want to do Italian food but all the places I have looked at are family owned, my chef thinks that I can "penetrate the click" which pretty much means that I am the type of person who can get into almost any group and fit in, but things are different when it is working and not just working but trying to work in a family owned and operated place when not only do you not know the food, you aren't very good when it comes to professional cooking and the speed and kitchen rules and such. So I don't know how that is going to work out for me in the long run. I know that I can do it and find a place that I can be happy with but that is going to take me swallowing my fear of rejection and such and just going into these places and doing it. It is hard though when you don't have the age, experience, know how, techniques,  skills, and everything else that everyone else that you will be working with will have. But I know that at one point they where all at where I am now, and it was a lot tougher and rougher for them than it will be for me, but it is still the thought of going into a place and making a fool out of myself, ya know.. not even just going into a place, more or less having the chef trust you enough to let you into their kitchen, and trust you enough to let you into their world THEN making a fool out of yourself, and it is inevitable, I know this because I make a fool out of myself unintentional on the daily. Ugh, it is just difficult. I know me and I know that I have the tendencies to mess things up and look stupid, or sound stupid, and I'm really not! I don't know why I do stupid things or don't get things to make me sound so dumb, and dumb in font of people you don't want to look dumb in front of.

I Can't Wait Till I Want A Baby

Is that wrong? I mean I don't want a baby right now I want one in like 7 or 8 years but I keep seeing everyone with their kids and they seem so happy! I mean yea parenting and kids have their ups and downs but still, to have a person who depends on you so much, and will have a unconditional love for you no matter what happens seems to be an amazing feeling. I mean I open up my lap top everyday and can't help but smile because this is the face I see.

tell me that isn't the cutest picture ever! My day could be going down hill and I see this and I can't help but laugh or at least smile, I miss my little nephew so much! I mean I have grown up around children of all ages and I love kids! but I don't want to bring a baby into the world right now when not only the world is unstable but I am unstable. I don't want my future kids to grow up and go through the things that my brother and I had to go through and am still going through, don't get me wrong I feel like that makes you a stronger person, but it also leaves you with a lot of messed up memories and scares, I mean come on Gary and I where both in counseling at a young age and both need to be back in, actually we should have never stopped going. I don't want to put someone else through that if it avoidable, I want my babies to grow up with BOTH parents! and when I say both I mean I want to be with someone for the rest of my life, the person I choose to have kids with I want to be with forever, I want to be happy and them to be happy, because if the parents aren't happy the babies see that and are going to notice, the worst thing is when your kids want to know why mommy and daddy don't like each other anymore and why one of them are usually always gone.

Please think before having kids people. Stop thinking about yourselves and sex and think about what the life for the baby you are bringing into this cold world  and what it will be like for them. Because once you have a baby your life is now about them. Period. Take responsibility for your actions after sex or take the actions to be responsible during sex.

That's all.

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me

-Larissa Pree

<3

I'm At Home With You(:

So slowly but surely I am letting go of what happened with me and Louis (dad) for those of you who don't know. I shouldn't let it bother me, and I'm not going to anymore, it isn't worth it:]

On another note, things at home have been going really well, my roommates and I have been pretty busy well not really but pretty bored, so in the last couple days we have rearranged he living room, created a boredom jar, hung up pictures and such, and went to parties, I feel so at home with these girls it isn't even funny, like I couldn't picture having a home and not having them in it. Crazy right? I know. Hopefully though things go through with me and kayla getting our own apartment, just me and her, and us both getting jobs, I'm going to miss Leann bunches though, she is like my little Mormon sister(; lol at least that gives me an excuse to go to Utah:] well her and her friends, besides the douche at our apartment now, Brandon; I wont go for him because I don't like him.. at he knows it. Well he doesn't like me either but I am used to that haha that probably isn't something you should be used too...? that's bad, but there are many things I am used to that I shouldn't be haha..

I can't sleep though, which sucks and Kayla said she finished her blog post and it reminded me that I haven't posted in a few days so I figured it was time for a post. I think the reason I can't sleep is because I miss being able to sleep with someone and cuddle, I miss cuddling especially with the weather we are having right now. I don't think I miss being in Humboldt as much as I miss the people I can't see like for example if My mom and brother, My sister and nephew, and my neighbors where here I would feel great! what more do you need?

I feel my self getting fatter and I need to go work out again! now that my cramps haven't been as bad I am going to go and start again, because I don't like the feeling. ugh, frustrating! especially being around people who are way smaller than you it makes me feel even worse hah but it is whatever I guess (:

I think I need to go back to counseling, because I have issues and that is no joke, I didn't realize they where as bad as they where till they recently got pointed out, for example I bottle up my emotions and don't talk to anyone about them, when I get mad or even the slightest bit upset I get silent and leave, I don't empress the things that bother me till they are to the point where it isn't okay, I think the reason I am like that is because I have too many insecurities to count and things wrong with me that if I point out things that they are going to come back on me and I don't want that, I don't think that would happen but it is a little thing that I always have in my mind.

My insecurities hold me back from so much, I have been told so many times that I am to harsh on myself, but I can't help it. I see everything that is wrong with me all the time, there isn't a happy medium there is just wrong. I don't know why I do that  but I do. I don't think I do anything right, I don't think anything is right with me and so on and so forth and that is just something I am going to have to figure out how to work on, because it is tearing me apart. I don't like  to show people that things hurt me, because it makes me feel week,      I don't like people to see me cry because it makes me feel like a baby. But people get the impression that I am a bitch and don't get me wrong I am but that isn't what I wanted to be. I just don't know any other way to protect myself. blah.

Tomorrow is Sushi day:] get ready for pictures and recipes!! <3 <3

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me.
-Larissa Pree
 <3

Portland.

I like Portland but there really isn't anything to do with out money, and I don't like tagging alone when I don't have money I feel like a complete bum. I really need to get a job again.

I am really going through a lot right now, I don't want to move back to Humboldt County because I have come to the conclusion that I don't like it there, It makes me close to some of the people I don't ever want to see again. ever. I hate more than anything when people who don't have a right to my life try to act like they have any say in it, or when people who have absolutely no right to say anything about other peoples live because of the things they have done and are doing, think they can say something, when honestly they are pieces of shit who have nothing better to do with their lives. grow up. I don't want anything to do with you. I don't care if you are reading this thinking it is about you, and if you are I hope you think it is about you. Either way I just wasted perfectly good space on that.

Today was interesting I would post the recipe to what I made but I don't know where it is at the moment so I will post it as soon as I can with a picture. I finally ate a maple bacon doughnut from voodoo doughnuts, and it was sooo good, I'm not really in the mood for anything through.. like I feel drained.. ugh I don't know. 

whattteeeevvveeerrrr..

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me

-Larissa Pree

<3

Ay I got a Dirty Mind!

funny right?

15 things about me :]

15 things about me:
1. My Favorite color is Purple
2. I'm constantly listening to music or some sort of noise
3. I love to cook! hints the blog name lol
4. I'm not a girly girl and would rather get dirty, than stay clean all the time
5. I'm a very complicated person, no matter how many times I tell you I'm simple.
6. I don't have many friends but the ones I do have I cherish
7. I don't want to stay in one place
8. I don't smoke weed or drink, well often;] but I don't encourage other people to stop or start
9. I over think practically everything
10. I believe in true love
11. I think that sex is pointless if there is nothing behind it, like mutual feelings
12. I'm a triple Pisces, for those who don't know every one is born under the sun, the moon, and the rising, most people have different signs under those things such as a Aries sun, Pisces moon, and a different rising, but I was born under a Pisces Sun, moon and rising, so take everything you know about Pisces and triple it and you got me, I have never met another person with a triple anything..
13. I Love people drawing me pictures and notes I keep everything
14. I believe in equal right, and yes even if I hit you, you can hit me, but only as hard as I hit you and never in my face cuz then you are dead.
15. I don't like being alone.

there are 15 things you now know about me:]

Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me
-Larissa Pree
<3

Smh, Why You So Stupid

ndfsa;gb;bgvja;dsdslfkj nseakhcgfrny acebsfsdhfbdsagfpiaewugfpjbn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is how I feel at the moment... my morning has gone a little like this.. well almost exactly like this
I'm not going to school.. 


1) Woke up Super Tired from staying up to late last night (my own falt)
2) Over sweetened my coffee
3) It is snowing and I don't have clothes that will keep me warm
4) I'm trying to get over a pretty bad cold that I was in the hospital for about 2 weeks ago for
5) I forgot my knife kit TWICE!
6) slipped in the slushy, muddy, hell along the way to the MAX station 
7) I am having some personal problems, Forgot that I am a female and didn't buy Feminine supplies for Shark Week when I had money and now I don't have really anything..
8) I have the biggest headache I have ever had in my entire life
9) My hair is wet and it is snowing 
10) I am out of Vicodin,  and I.B Profins don't seem to be doing much
11) My socks are soaked from my "it doesn't fucking snow where I am from shoes" 
12) Our Toilet is clogged and We don't have a plunger
SMH! what a freaking Morning! now be over.


I really really didn't want to miss ANY more school, but it looks like I didn't really have a choice today..


Today is not good:[ I want to go home and be with my mom and family! FML!
I just want to give up, I guess it is a good thing I don't know how



I just want to cry but for now I'm going to go and Find a reason to smile.






Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me
-Larissa Pree
<3

God Gave Me You

Somthings in life you will never forget and these are some of the things and people

Leann and Kayla are the best roommate I could have ever asked for, they listen to my problems, deal with me when I rant, help me when I am sad, and are everything I didn't expect to find when I moved here! I moved here with the mentality that it was sincerely Me against the world, that my new roommates and I weren't going to get along because I am a hard person to deal with let alone live with.. but luckily they like me.. or so I think :] I don't know what I would have done if I got anyone else but them, and now they can read this and know that I truely do love everything about them!

 I miss these boys more than anyone will realize! I can't wait to see them again! <3

 This baby boy made every moment I was with him back home worth smiling about! he is the cutest and most adorable baby! I miss him so much!

 This girl is like my sister! I love her so much and miss here like crazy! btw that is the same baby in the last two pictures lol  <3

 Mom.. I don't think that you read what I post but you are in my mind all the time, I hate to see you go through what you do, you are the most amazing, wonderful and just indescribable person this planet has to offer! I hope that you realize it, and do what is right. You are my backbone, my rock, my mom, sister, and best friend, you are everything to me and that is still a understatement! I don't know where I wold be with out you and I don't know who I would be with out you, I can live with the others missing but you are the most important thing in my life!

  Randee.. oh Randee... beezy! I miss you like crazy! when I was home it made me realize how much I love you! you are honestly one of my BEST friends! you are an awesome person! don't ever change or let some douche bagg of a guy bring you down! EVER! you are a strong, beautiful, caring and so much more kind of person and the only person you should let judge you is god. don't change and stay beautiful baby!

 Larissa. nuff said lol but I will go on for the people who don't know that you are my other half lol you are the pea to my nut, the best to my friend! you are so beautiful! never sell yourself short or forget who you are,  forget where you came from and what you have been through! you are worth more than any guy could ever give so don't forget that when you are feeling low.

 Azariah Noah Kingsang Davison and my beautiful Sister Skye! you two complete my every day! you both can put a smile on my face at my lowest of times! I miss you both so so so much! don't ever let anyone change you babygirl you are so amazing! and deserve the best life has to offer! you are an amazing person and mom, don't let anyone tell you different... ever! and if they do punch that stupid MF right in their nose for me:] I love you!

 BROSIF! We have our ups and downs but you are and always will be the one person I look up to most, skip the bullshit and you are an amazing guy! you don't deserve what you have been through with some bitches ( not woman, not ladies) but bitches.I know that you will make an AMAZING man to who ever you choose to be with, whether or not I agree, I'm sure I will come around to tolerate any woman you decide to be with just because I love you, but as far as I am concerned no one on this planet deserves  you or is good enough for you, I know you are my older brother but I will kill some one for you and give anything thing on this planet to make you happy! I love you with all my heart bro! I hope you know that!e

 haha I miss you guys soooo much! I hate that when I was home I didn't to see either of you! the day that we spent when we took this picture was freaking amazing and I hope that someday we can kinda do it again! I love you music Terra it is so freaking good I see you going far with it! I hope you never stop! Michael I have known you sence first grade and you where my VERY BEST friend! I don't think any one compared to you! I hate that we have grown apart but I know that you will always be a part of my life!!! <3 <3

 The three musketiers or however you spell it! I love you guys!  Nuff said! <3

 tehe good times!

 Shelby! I love you!!! so much! Btdub You never took me horseback riding.. or even hung out with me when I was home.. sad face.. hugely.. owell lol I miss you! oh and you look freaking amazing!

 Oh there is wayyy to much to say about this girl! we have been through some serious shit! and I have done some of my most embarrassing and worse things with you and I love every memories was have together! you are the shit! I have so much more to say but it is 2 in the morning and I have school tomorrow and I am tired of writting..

BLAHHHHH that toook SOOOO much longer than I thought! and now I think that I am finally done, THAT THE FREAKING LORD! I think my eyes are going to start bleeding from how sore they are.. sad, I know but then again so is my life but then again not really lol because I am ACTUALLY doing something with it lol
just saying! okay I am done now because I know I am tired and this whole thing probably makes NOOO sense at freaking all but that is fine.. AHHHHH OKAY I AM DONE WRITTING NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

By the way one more thing! I realized that when I went home that I am glad I don't have to take rules anymore.. I make my own, so having to abide by them where KILLING ME! I feel like I am loosing my family because I moved but I think that is supposed to happen..? maybe not. ugh confusing.

okay now I am done done. :]

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-Larissa Pree
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Never Miss An Opportunity To Grasp An Opportunity

So.. Life is not so complicated.. I am enjoying school and being at home, things seem to be going pretty at the apt, although I've been noticing little things that have kinda been bugging me that didn't bug me before.. and what makes it worse is it is trivial things that I'm letting bother me.

on another note, I miss being home but then again I really don't, because on my latest trip there I really complicated things for myself.. I have a habit of doing that.. ahhh the joys of being me.. I was thinking about it and when I go home next my nephew is going to be a year or close to! that is crazy! Time just passes you by with out even giving you a chance to enjoy it! so when you get a moment to stop and enjoy what you have; do just that.. enjoy it. don't think about it just do it!

For example it snowed today, and being from where I am from it was the first time I had seen it snow like that and I was sooo excited! It was one of the most beautiful and peaceful things I have seen, I mean look how beautiful this is!

Gorgeous right?

I went and worked out again today because I still wanna loose more weight! 

it feels good to work out again but it is just finding the motivation to go in the first place.

I think I am going to make a smoothie now... it's healthy lol ;]

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-Larissa Pree

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If You Dreams Don't Scare You They Arn't Big Enough

Do you ever think that what you have always wanted to do just isn't for you? I do, I think that all the time intill I realize that I love cooking and I can see myself cooking for some one big someday! although there are things trying to bring me down everyday, I throw it all away when I cook! because that is my passion! I can forget about everything when I am in the kitchen! I get to put all my negative energy into positive things when I cook, Even if it turns out bad it is a learning experience and I can improve from it. I am happy with the path that my life is taking!  it seems to define me and I can express my passion and who I am in the food I make, show people that I am more than just some ghetto kid that grew up with nothing, in nothing. I can cook for my family and friends who appreciate what I make and are usually willing to try anything.

Don't ever be to afraid that you make your dreams smaller than what they should be, don't ever let some one tell you that you can't do something or wont be good at it, because no matter what you do you wont be good intill you practice and get the experience to show that you are improving, you will never know everything about anything and you will never be the first to do or invent something, and along with that you will NEVER be the first to make that mistake. Don't wait for life to come around and hand you what you want because you will be waiting forrrreeevvveerrr, if you want something go and take it! because you wont get something worth having handed to you.

keep that in mind when you think that you can't do something or are scared!

Btw Happy Friday the 13th ;]

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-Larissa Pree
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The Recipes You Have Been Awaiting

This folks is scallion Mash Potatoes, Salted Filet Mignon, and Salt Encrusted Beets:]

Are you ready for this delicious, tasty, yummy mouth wat... you get the point;] dish!?

Because I'm Ready to tell you how to make it:]

So the first thing is you need to prepare all of you ingredients.. by the way there is A LOT of salt in this recipe so if you don't like salt this might not be for you, although you don't taste the sale to much once everything is all cooked lol..

You need:

8oz Steak (filet mignon)

Salt and Pepper to taste (tt)

Mash Potatoes

Potatoes of your choice preferably Tukon Gold cut and Peeled, cut in to med cubes

4Tbl Milk

4tbl Butter

2Tbl Sour Cream

1/3 bunch of scallions (green onions)

Salt Encrusted Beet

1 fairly small beet

8oz Kosher salt

3Tbl fresh thyme (dried will do although fresh is better)

2 egg whites

2Tbl pepper

Whooooooo hoooo Lets Get Cookin!

So first off you need to peel and cut your potatoes and get them into salted water, (FUN FACT: for those who don't know salt helps the water to boil as well as stops the potatoes from coloring) keep on low heat and NEVER BOIL your potatoes!  allow your potatoes to cook slowly this way they don't get done too much before your beet.

Then you need to make you mixture for your salt encrusted beet Mix all ingredients together excluding beet, it will form a nasty looking past type concoction, don't fret you wont be eating that:] 

Now wash off your beet and cut off top and bottem providing a stable beet place beat on  1/2 sheet pan of whatever you have handy, lined with parchment.. or tin foil once again what ever you have  handy place your beet on to sheet, and cover completely with salt mixture! place into a 450 degree oven for 1hr and 45min or intill beet is easily pierced with a knife. once in oven keep an eye on the time and move on..

ACTUALLY! with then time you have to wait now, pour your self a drink and kick back for a second.

now that, that is over, once your potatoes are pierced easily with a knife or fork drain them and put them in the oven for NO MORE than 2 min to allow then to dry out a bit, you don't want watery potatoes. then mix your milk and butter together and bring to a small boil, once the butter and milk and completely combined add the sour cream, mix well, it might be slightly bumpy and that is okay, heat some butter till it is completely brown and wilt your scallions, once this is done mix the milk, butter, and sour cream mixture into your potatoes till they are at the desired consistance you like then add your butter and scallions! now you are complete! set this on the back burner on low to keep warm. 

Check your beet, if it is easily pierced pull it out and let it cool while you start your steak!

Heat a pan with (I used Butter but you can use what you like) heat pan with butter till almost smoking point! then add your steak and cook each side for a couple minutes ( this should produce a med rare steak) pull off and set aside in warm place for 10 min to allow it to rest, to regain softness and juices

Now remove salt crust from your beet and slice into strips or how ever you find appeasing, 

assemble plate and enjoy:]

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-Larissa Pree

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Learn This

So things are going better than they where a few days ago, my apartment is still a mess and I don't have the "umph" (urge) to clean it.. my lovely roommate bought me a bus pass for the next two weeks so that I could get back and forth to where I needed to untill I get some sort of money..

I started my new class today which is Cuisines Across Cultures, today we didn't do much besides listen to our new Chef talk for about 4 hours straight, that was like death, although some things where interesting. We also created a cure for a salmon filet that we will keep covered and in the salt cure for about three days then we are going to take it out and cook it. You wont see pictures or a recipe of that for a couple more days, so in that case lets talk about what you will be seeing tomorrow, tomorrow I am making Salt and pepper Prawns with Sunomono (cucumber salad) as well as Filet Mignon with a scallion mash potato and Salt roasted beats. That is what I will be putting up pictures of and recipes of tomorrow for you all to try and make at home. I'll let you know how it goes when I make it and let you know how hard it is.. :]

good luck <3

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-Larissa Pree
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Wish You Where Here

Today is the day that I got home (back to my apt in OR) when I first got here I was so excited to be back, then my roommate left for work and I came home to a dark empty house and the reality set in that I am alone. So to cure this feeling I decided to to cook spaghetti, and do laundry, then I came to the conclusion that maybe the reason for my sudden overdose of sadness is that I have been up sense 4am, so I decided that a nap was the cure, so that is what I did... but when I woke up I was still alone, and the sadness crept back into my life. I'm not with my family.. I'm not with him. Wondering the house alone listening to music that I can barely hear on full blast because my ear is still clogged and infected. This is where I need a companion.. dog.. cat.. fly.. something. I don't like being alone because then it is just me and my sincerely not right mind and there is no one to save me from myself, so I sit and think about everything that is going wrong; which is defiantly not the cure for what I was/am already feeling. The I was going to go and sit in the hot tub, but sitting there alone still didn't sound appealing. All I want to do is crawl in to his bed and be held. Unfortunately, I have another long 6 months to endure till I can do that. All though there is no promise that I will go back and still have things be he same, which really worries me, because if I loose another person that I really care about than I can guarantee it will be a very very long while before I open up my heart again. I miss my mom already.

I just wish you where here.

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-Larissa Pree 

Rollin With A Pisces Buckle Up Tight

This song was played as I was coming back to OR with my dad, which was a interesting trip..

SOOOO updateee duhhh!! <3

I am officially back in OR on my last stretch of school! 6 more months babay! I am super excited to be back with my roommates but I miss my family and neighbor soooo much already and I have only been gone for a day! I know here we go again with my emotional crap lol well it is my blog so I can do that ;] just sayin'

I came home to a financial disaster! for example.. I have absolutely no money.. actually that is a understatement.. I back Negative no money almost 30 dollars negative no money.. how to I get myself in to such predicaments?! I HAVE NO CLUE! No money = no food, transportation, no.. well ANYTHING! oh the life I lead... This better be worth it in the long run.. because right now it really isn't worth it all...

So good news for you Precious few followers that I have come to accumulate <3
I start school again on Monday which means that YOU will start getting recipes and pictures again :D and less of my sop stories... maybe.. there is no promise on that haha
like I said before I will be trying to post recipes and picture every Monday and Friday and keep you filled in on what I am doing in class now that I have internet and school again.. which I have to say is extremely nice..

I ALSO CAN WASH MY FREAKING CLOTHES NOW!!!! YESSS!! <3 <3 <3 FOR FREE! AT HOME!! God bless housing washers and dryers! Oh how I have missed you so!

welp that all for today folks, Tell you what I'm up to tomorrow:}

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-Larissa Pree
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