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I think I am going to end up dying at a young age with everything I put myself through.. dor example I just found out today that my externship chef is going to have me working full time.. like 9-5 monday through friday.. plus my other job that actually pays me.. OH did I mention I NOT getting paid for my FULL time externship job? HA. So I am going to be working my butt off for nothing but experiance that I'm not sure that I want anymore.. ugh. I am going to be having to work between 12-15 hour days almost every single day between my two jobs.. excuse me while I fasten the nuse that they call like around my neck which is already choking me. Ugh s,h. I know that yhe lord wouldn't give me anytjing I cant handle but I think he has morefaith in me than I have in myself. I can handle this, or at least I hope I can.. why would I be doing it if I couldn't handle it? On a less dim note my brothers girlfriends son Angel is probably the cutest kid in the world along with his sister, he has never met me yet gets on the phone with me and sings me is ABC's and tells me "i love you auntie risa,and i miss you" i swear this brought a tear or 20 to my eyes. And he asked my mom if he could have a picture of his auntie rissa, hor cute right! Goodness, so my mom gave him a picture of me and he went and put it in a safe place lol he is 2 or almost 3 lol too freaking cute! All of my roommates are gone abd I have been here by myself for about 5 days now I think. I miss them a lot but it is good to have actual alone time. To do whatever I want and not worry about pissing people off. it's hard though to know that there is a possibility I will never see one of them again though.. never a goid thing. To loosesome onethat you where wayyyy to close with. Family sttatus. Leann I don't think I could have asked to have met a better person, roommate or friend in this experiance.. I don't know if you are still blog stalking me, but if you are I miss you a lot and love ya girl; forrreeevrrr I have changed and grown a bunch sense I have been here but don't get me wrong I still possess a lot of the bad qualities than I had before and I don't think that they are ever goin to go away but I have grown up a lot and grown close to people who before I probably wouldn't have been so close with before. I am greatful for the people I have met here, wheather I like them or not. And I have learned something d from each of them. Feel Free To Blog Stalk Me -Larissa Pree <3