Give me a reason to smile...

I think  I might be depressed..I can't find a reason to be happy anymore.. everything seems to be going wrong, I feel so lost and confused, I have never not had control of my life and right now I feel like I don't have control..
I feel like the one thing I love to do most isn't what I want to do anymore.. I love to cook and lately I don't feel like that is what I am going to want to do with the rest of my life..  I wake up every day and don't want to move, breathe, or anything I just want to lay there and sleep.. I wake up in pain every  morning. I wish I didn't have to worry about where I am going to live 6 months from now, or where I am going to work, or if I will
have to take the bus to by groceries and things that I need. It's difficult. I have been through worse but I don't want to have to deal with all that crap again. I don't know where I see myself 50 years from now or even 5 years from now. I had this shit planned, but the funny thing about life is it is unpredictable, and that is so true, but the truth is that everything thing that we do, and go through today will make us stronger for tomorrow.

Truth is guys, that no matter how planned out you have your life, it will never go the way you want it too, the "higher power" who or whatever that is, whether you believe in god or have your own beliefs has a plan for all of us all, and honestly will never out you into a situation you can't handle.
Keep your head up and take a base ball bat to everything life throws at you and make it a home run.


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-Larissa Pree
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